CD 1 of cycle 33....

I mean, I think I am on cycle 33, does anyone even know anymore?  Does it even matter?

Anyway, I had my post-op appt. with Dr. M. a couple days ago.  It was pretty uneventful, but good.

Basically:

• my uterus was attached to my bladder
• my uterus was also attached to the fat wall in front of my "guts"
• endometriosis removed from left tube/ovary area
• right tube untwisted and adhesions released
• still have hematoma over incision over right tube

Dr. M. said he was pretty sure my right tube was not functioning, but my left probably was/is.  So, I am somewhat hopefully since I now have 2 tubes that work, but still concerned since I had one tube that was "working" all along.

We decided that DH and I will "try on our own" this cycle since we will be going on vacation in 2 weeks.  A vacation baby???  I sure hope so, but after 32 cycles...I think we know how this one will end.

"I want to know what love is"

"I Want To Know What Love Is"


I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Let's talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and I'm feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

Laparoscopy complete!

And....owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Ok...maybe I am a little dramatic, but I am in more pain than I expected.

Dr. M. spent about 2 hours working on my Lap & SHG yesterday.  I haven't had a chance to talk to him yet, but he did speak with DH.  DH told me that there were adhesions on my right tube and it was folded over.  Dr. M. was able to "free it up" and he also took care of some endometriosis.

I have 4 "incisions", but only 2 of them are new holes since he was able to use part of my c-section scar and my belly button scar.  Not that it matters...I am a human pin cushion and slicer uper.  This is my 4th surgery in 3.5 years.  DH told me that I must love that surgical center....must be a love-hate relationship, because I sure do hate it right now!

All in all, I am glad the lap is done.  I am glad there was "something in there" and he could do "something about it".  I will call on Monday for a follow-up appt.

DH has his uro appt. on Wednesday.  Again, I don't know what I hope to find out there, but it is a step that needs to be taken...

My potential hero...Dr. M.

Where's my sister?

Ok... we all know IF sucks.  Sucks doesn't even describe it really.

Anywho, on the way home from a birthday party, the convo goes like this...

DS- "Where's my sister?"

Me - "You don't have a sister"

DS- "Where's my brother"

Me- "You don't have a brother"

DS- "My have one soon?"

Me- "Yes, ummm, I mean maybe soon, yes, maybe"

It has finally happened.  DS realizes that he doesn't have a sibling.  IF sucks for me....IF sucks for DH and now IF sucks for DS. 

Cycle 32 =

Laparoscopy scheduled for 10/7/11.

I can't believe (well yes I can) that even with 6 follies and b2b IUIs I still can't get pregnant.  Nonsense!

I don't really know what to expect at the Lap and don't exactly know what I hope happens.  All I know is, something needs to happen before IUI #6.